Many people since I started this blog have asked me.. Do you get paid ? How much do you make ? and how have you survived the unsurvivable ? I never answer directly. Money is a private thing and most certainly essential for lifes needs. However, not a motivating factor for anytime other than basic needs. In fact with Three pound and 26 pence in my ban account at the end of every month, working sixty hours a week and fianncially supporting three children, with a huge mortgage and almost daily harassment I made do, creatively cooked from scratch, mended ad passed on clothing wherever possible and kept a clean and tidy home and as my Nan always a said kept the front step brushed. Through those years, trying to avoid further detentions and forced medicating I literally lived for the Justice of raising my children for the time I was allowed with them as carefully and setting the example of what women are capable of. During all those years I lived with faith in God and a sense of making sure that my children had some normalcy, when the authorities went to the utter extreme to defend and cover for the violence and attacks that the rapist and assosciates exposed us too. How did that motivate me ? Now I look back it was the sense that there was something bigger going on than just the dire and terrifying circumstances. That something bigger than me and my children and the abuse was in the world and that faith would always mean justice. So many people assume that money is a motivating factor in my life, yet in truth, compassion, bravery, truth and faith are what motivate me every day. Money can come and go through no fault of ones own, yet values, integrity and faith can ever be taken away. Somehow, even when facing death I found somewhere inside me the strength from faith. The people who have been part of each othes lives, who share values of decency, repsect, honesty and Justice, are the shining light at times of great darkness. I try and make sure that throughout to the best of my ability and within my power, that I do the same for others as I would want for me. Life itself is motivating, yet faith and justice truely make life worth the struggles and pain and suffering….